Thursday, February 23, 2012

time warps

It never ceases to amaze me how when life jerks a rug out from under you, it seems as if you're living in two time/reality zones. On the one hand, you're going about life as if nothing happened. Washing dishes, folding clothes, sweeping floors, ironing shirts, gathering eggs, watering plants, making a grocery list...those mundane, ordinary, drive-you-out-of-your-mind-with-boredom tasks. Nothing has changed. These things must be done.
On the other hand, your heart and your mind stops. There are no answers, just questions. Future plans can't really be made, because you don't have the answers for what the future holds. You feel as if time has stopped, except everything all around you continues on at routine speed.
I'm a Martha (yeah, the one who wanted her sister to help out with housework instead of loafing with the boys) type personality. I seek to serve, to do, to have a plan of action, and I'd like those around me to pitch in and do their part.
As I was pondering through some of these things last night, I was reminded of a quote several friends have written recently. All them worded it differently, but the basic gist is this: While the circumstances of life surprise me, they're no surprise to God.
I find comfort in that.
The Creator of the stars I love to see at night, of the rain that breathes new life into plants, and who set the earth's spin in orbit...He knows. More importantly, he CARES. How awesome is that?


2 comments:

Jennifer said...

I love that song and have REALLY needed that this week. I have several "surprises" come up and it's been tough. Tuesday was the worse. If it's any consolation to you, I feel like I am a Martha too!

Lydia said...

I'm so thankful for blogs. I feel like I haven't really chatted with you in FOREVER. I'm praying through all the things you are going through with your family members and with your health also- I love you Monica!!! As for me- I'm a balance between Mary and Martha- depends on where my heart is on any given day. Am I focused on Jesus or how perfect things look/are going, etc.

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